Sunday, January 04, 2009
e cheesecake is absolutely nice... and i dun even like cheesecakes to begin with!! even my mum who dun take cheese agrees with me... cheese n milk taste is like so not thr!!!
it's finally 2009 and the clock is ticking away. im soon gonna b 22 this year which sounds so scary. andy is getting more fabulous... vanitha is getting hotter and hotter with her personal trainer and her fabulous life with her boyfriend (they are literally like a married couple)... diana is as pretty as always and soon gonna get even prettier due to some external help and she is soon gonna get engaged!! im so happy for all of them...
as for me... im scared... my new year resolution isn't working out just yet... im soon losing it... im still pretty much struggling with my body image issues... yes i did lose weight but im slowly putting it back due to my crazy eating habits.... i eat my daily doses of fruits and veg but yet im still pretty much snacking here n thr... with e worse of all... my ice cream cravings... =S
i went to buy cny clothes... i bought e sleeveless dress anyways... but now im worried how fat m i gonna look in it... but when e day comes, i will def wear it... dun waste $$ rites... hais... im getting so lazy and everyday e thought of gg up e bike is so freaking irritating me... im soon gonna get some kind of "blame e whole world except myself attitude" alr which i absolutely hate!! i believe tt everything is pretty much in your own hands and u can never blame anyone else except for yourself when unfortunate things happen!! i do not wan to turn into the former.... e latter still pretty much is my own way of seeing things...
as for e man dept for me... 2008 was weird... i finally went thru and understood e whirlwind and ups and downs of crazy things... e crazy story tt i was embroiled in was even crazier... like what i say... it's way too complicated... too complicated till e story even if put into some kind of serial drama pple also wun find convincing... much less understand why i did all those stupid stuff... even i myself also dun understand y... i finally understood e true meaning of liking someone... when u like someone, you shd b able to like them for who they are which includes their positive points and negative points... i did it... even thou what happened in e end or soon gonna b e end doesn't look like a bed of roses... but at least i have been thru it and it's still pretty much an experience... an experience i wun forget...
good for me... now im so numb tt i dun even know what's happening and how m i really feeling which scares me to e max.... i want to b able to know what im really feeling so i can truly open up to e better person somewhr out thr... i want to b able to accept pple for both their good n bad pts... for me... now im kinda fixating on e bad pts of his so tt i can tell myself tt he's not worth it and am really getting over him... i tink till tis pt it's like 98% 99% over alr.... soon i will reach e 100 percentile alr!! jiayou!!
anyways... 2009 started with kinda a blast... i missed e freaking fireworks due to my tardiness but still managed to get to know a few new nice characters in which im so totally happy to do so.... im truly happy for yiwen even though she has her hair parting frm e left... she's still pretty logical abt stuff... hahas.... =P... xiaoshi... hmmmm.... wad shd i say... i tink i shd jus say good luck and pls dun fall into quick-sand AGAIN!!
ytd went bowling.... realised how bad my hand leg coordination is... but still i managed to improve by e end of e duno how many game... hahas... even thou i was e last in place but im still quite happy with myself... wahahah... pretty much lamed thruout... but im so happy!!
anyways b4 bowling met up with andy n diana... im so happy!! we slacked all e way... or rather aimless all e way and ate all e way... siao... e things we ate... subway den hokkaido ice cream then tako pachi den museum photoshoot den waffle place den i went to eat subway again.... b4 tt at home i ate 4 slices of freaking corn bread which is 100cals each and an apple.... so u see.. my bingeing... im so dead.... but still ytd was a fabulous day!! hahas!!!
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